*Jasmine Summer*

Man i know it's been a while....ok yes I haven't wrote anything all summer but in my defense...I had no internet. But I will catch u up on what's been happenin! I did make it home eventually...and Shawn barely survived his trip to the boondocks. He ended up getting very sick while he was visiting and was in the hospital, but apparently he didn't hate it to much cause he would still come back to visit again. So after Shawn left and reality kicked in I started bartending at my favorite little bar in Badger called Across the Street or the ATS. I loved my job there and had a lot of fun and saved some money to get back to school. I spent lots of evenings with my family at the riverbank fishing. I spent time with old friends and new ones. I watched my best friend Kayla get married to a really great guy. But the ultimate part of my summer was Jasmine Emma!!!! I got to spend almost everyday with her and I just can't believe how much she has grown up! my little girl is going to become a young lady before I know it. I need to finish school so I don't miss to much. I learned some hard lessons this summer, I found out how cruel some people can be. (for some reason I still think all people should be nice) I know that having a seperated home for my child is always going to be a struggle/battle..but I have learned to be the bigger person and to control my temper. And I also learned that I don't think I ever want to come home other than for a short vacation again. My summer home was great don't get me wrong but I don't want to live there and I am not happy living there. This leaves me with a problem though, what about Jasmine...well I had a couple of things that would make this work. But the ideal oppurtunity just came my way when I got back to San Francisco. I had gotten back in to San Francisco late Thursday night and moved into our new apartment. 2 of our room mates were already here, Lauren and Trevor, they helped us unpack and showed us around. After all that was done Lauren mentions to me that Delta Airlines is hiring, where she works. This would be the perfect job for me. Really good pay and me and my immidiate family fly's for free basically. I could go see jasmine whenever i want!!!! So please say a little prayer for me to get this job!!!! Ok....so man I have covered alot of things already i don't want to overwhelm you. And I feel really scatter brained today....for an ending note for the day...I usually never dream...but lately I have been having bad dreams every night. But they're like i didn't get the job i wanted, or I cut myself shaving and the cut hurt really bad and bled on my favorite dress just dumb things like this. Does it mean anything?