Be my Valentine

So I know some of you guys have concerns and worry bout me when it comes to boys :) And advice is always great I am only 22 so I know many of you are wiser than me.

Out of past experience I have learned about the "bad" guys. I think I dated everyone that lived in Roseau county. I know the signs of cheating, controlling, abusive, and assholes in general. I have been single for a while now and a huge man hater. Seriously ask mom, she was a little concerned even how mean I was to men and that I would never let myself love again. And I took it to heart that she was concerned. I am fine being alone or on my own, I actually really enjoyed it. Coming here though was for change...mainly school but also for personal growth. I had become a angry hateful person when I was living at home and I started hating the way I had become. So I made a promise to myself that when I moved here that it was going to be all about me. I know this sounds selfish but sometimes you need to be selfish! I wanted to find the sweet nice side of me again, who loves taking care of people, I wanted to be able to be judged for who I am and not who I was or for being a Norstebon (not that i'm not proud, but I hate that everyone has there idea of me because I grew up there). I get to choose my friends here and choose everything really :) I did not expect to meet some one I liked and wasn't looking for it even. Of course I take notice to a cute guy and stuff, but even my first few weeks here I was blowing guys off. And a couple weekends ago I went out with Amber and decided earlier that day when discussing boys that this is the time to change and take chances. So this is the chance i'm taking, and I think he's a great chance!

It was on a Friday I think that I met Shawn and I had seen him around so I knew he went to my school. I said hey and he came over and started talking to me. We hit it off right off the bat. He has been nothing like anyone I have ever dated. He's sweet, very smart, ambitious, and kind of a dork, and I like him alot. We learn more about eachother everyday. And he helps me stay focused with school because thats why were both here. We do have alot in common when it comes to being on our own and being in the real world. But were very different when it comes to the way we grew up. He is from Orange County, is a very talented man, he plays guitar like I have never seen, makes his own beats (music) on his computer, is here for game design (he is excellent at as well), great drawer, is a computer geek, he speaks to me in other languages sometimes :), and I could go on. It's nice to meet someone so smart and going somewhere with his life. And he is nice to look at :) haha. I have met a few of his friends and they also are very nice.

So yesterday was Valentine's day. He came to my dorm after class and suprised me with a rose and a lil present (candle ect...), we spent the day together had lunch, walked in the rain, had a great supper, and watched movies. Than we we found a great lil place with a great view were we hung out and talked. About what we wanted and everything we could think of. We are now officially dating and are taking things slow and having fun.

I'm extremely happy here, I love the city, my friends, the school, and a great guy to spend my time with. And don't worry I know when to run from a guy...i've done it many times.

But right now i'm exactly where I want to be. And I for the first time don't feel held back or like running. I can be me, and make my life what I always wanted it to be. I found my Valentine....and I think i'm going to keep him for awhile =)

Oh and I know all my nosey family has mentioned meeting him...we will see what this semester brings. But if all goes well and you all promise to be on your best behavior i might see if he will fly home with me to visit for awhile. ;) haha I love my family!