a sleepless night

So after tons of preparing, I don't think anyone can be ready for such a major change! I have basically everything ready to go and set up. I had a great going away party last night with all my close friends and family.

It was nice to see everyone. But I'm not really prepared to leave the one I love most , my daughter. I know its a sacrifice I need to make to better both our lives. But regardless, its still the hardest thing I have ever done! I hope I can handle being away tell May. So now everyone's in bed and I'm laying awake wondering how tomorrow will go. Will the weather be ok...its been snowing and windy and cold all day. Will I have everything I need? I have so many things running through my head. I was born and raised here in this small town, in northern Minnesota. I have never moved away. I thought I wanted to live here forever, but than reality hit. Big house single mom, job I hate, broke all the time. I was miserable and needed a change. So I started applying to schools. And it turned out this was my best option, to go to California. Some people think I'm crazy for moving so far, but like I say, go big or go home ha ha. I never would of thought I would be doing this....its gone by so fast. In October I quit my job sold my house and got a plan. And now its really happening. It doesn't feel real at all! It just goes to show you, if you want something bad enough you can make it happen. Going to school to be a fashion designer has been my dream since I was twelve. And now I'm chasing it.but I will say none of this would of been possible without my family and friends support. It's unreal how many amazing people I know and I'm related to ;) lol. So before I get off my phone and go to bed, thank you to everyone for the support, and to those who were negative and thought I couldn't do it :P ha ha. Good night going to cuddle my daughter one last time untell I see her again in May.