Sick or home sick???

Well I had a fun and eventfull few days. This weekend was lots of fun. Saturday I went out with Amber to a bar and had lots of fun, the end of the night was interesting. A couple of her friends had to much to drink and were sick and hard to keep control of. I finally waved a taxi down and Amber went to take care of her friends and I came straight back home (weird to call the Hilton home but for right now it is haha, not sure still how long were gonna be here). So yesterday I woke up really sick with a soar throat and cough....laying down did not help I would just cough harder. So instead I went on i guess a triple date haha sounds corny I know but I actually had fun. It was Shawn and I, Shawn's classmate Martin (from Norway) his girl Casey, and my friend Jackie and her boyfriend Mark. We all went to this great little Indian resturaunt, my first Indian food :) I LOVED IT, it was real fancy, Shawn ordered wine (I didn't drink any :P i'm not a fan of wine unless it's my grandpa's wine) the place was great! Afterwards Jackie and Mark had to leave but Shawn, Martin, Casey and I all went and had a couple drinks and then went home. Overall I felt better and it was a great date. But being stubborn like I am I stayed up late and listened to Shawn play guitar untell wee hours of the morning. I woke up this morning so sick I didn't want to move. This is crazy to me because I never get sick, ever! I had class, now i'm in my room feeling miserable. I haven't even ate today, the thought of having to go somewhere makes me miserable! But being stuck in my room is driving me crazy. I miss my daughter terribly....I miss holding her, seeing her, talking to her. It makes me really wonder if I can do this for at least four years....I feel like a selfish horrible parent. I'm even second guessing my major...is it pratical with such a shity economy, can i still have a family life if i become succesful with this career, every teacher I have seen in this school is very succesful but I have met one teacher with a family. None one else has a life other than there careers here. That is not what I want! I'm not going to school and missing basically 4 years of my daughters life so that i can miss another ten years to start a career for myself. By than she will be 18 and I wouldn't even know her. I miss my family too, I have always lived near to them and being away is hard. None of my friends here have a bond with there family the way I do mine, or most of there friends even. Everday I talk to at least one person in my family and my two closest girlfriends I talk to probably every other day. Family is my life, this has me so confused. I know i'm sick and overtired and am just homesick. And I need to probably get out of my room so that's what i'm going to do wether i'm sick or not. I keep overthinking all this when i'm here. So off to i don't know where yet but it has to be better than here right now.